Random thoughts and some personal notes

Blemishing thoughts popped up, Loitering in the back yard of mind; Gloomy faces spoke out the fraility, In the midst nonetheless we saw,others just watched. Somewhere there was a bit of heldup emotions, Making up the hearts heavy to bear; Heavier it felt,both longed to throw at eachother: Stars lost their way in the solitude of sky. Morning called 'wake up ,you are not dead; Days are long,none could wait that long 'Fight or flight the paths leading ahead'. Somewhere we listened,voices from inside To the songs that our hearts were singing ; Then infront lie the whole world , Bit by bit it revealed,an unventured world Dawn we had started to end in dusk And again we now start not to end But for every other dawn waiting.

Moving around in gentle strolls A sunny day and splendid sky, Riverine shore bore a solitude smile A bird in blue sat along the thorny bush, Gazing over the scintillating waters, Some where it shot down the surface But in vain for its prey quicker , Shall I stop in to watch it again? A question frequently asking self. As I waited on the sandy bank, A whole bunch of past falling, Out from the veiled hearts; Showy past so glorious,it seems for its charm filled fast around but then what its now to seek again? Blanched hearts now and smile so pale, Time drifted the charm then so high, Sat we around as if nothing more . The blue bird now it starts again; crossing over the silver line, and back with life on beeks. Silver lines of life to be crossed ?, though at vain Yes its time it rolls on forth; but never back? But the bird teaches another lesson, And I ask again myself ' now to watch or to be watched?'

The word 'recession' has been falling on my ears for last 2-3 years mostly from my friends abroad.Comparing recession in synonym to a cyclone thats rapidly approaching to fill our life with agony was the general approach..then a lot of reading..on recession..articles from Deloitte, Mckinsey improved the knowledge... Even after such efforts of knowing the situation, nothing seemed to have touched me..no one in close circle too..my parents n relatives who were mostly Govt servants were supposed to be immune to such economic down turns. So we were waiting. Our team at office was good n lively. Majority being bachelors , spent most of their evenings with lavish parties..May be most of them might have saved (I pray so)... The IBS termination episode started as an eye opener...never before had we heard about mass termination in a firm in Kerala since the slow down early this decade. Then a fine morning it was announced that our client want to downsize..means 6 among us,..luckily I es...

It has been almost 11 or 12 years , when I was first introduced to world of internet by my cousin n friend Arun. My activities with the internet being circling around the routine activities of checking mails and looking for some information needed for my studies n then at job. During the last few years blogging has started to grow as an effective medium for casual and business communication.Even then a blog did not arouse much interest in me, until a day when I came across a blog maintained by a firend. It was enlightening. The way he expressed himself in words; which on normal conversation I would have never shown the patience to listen. As an individual when ever I felt good or bad about something happening around my world, a habit developed of discussing, asserting , arguing, disagreeing ,fighting and a breakup for the day...most of the time my poor father was the sufferer. Hence the very idea of sharing my thoughts in a blog which can give as much loudness as possible was encouragi...